smile...

though your heart is aching

for the past couple of days

i have been looking at the last pictures dad took

and 

for the first time in my life

i have looked---and pondered images

from the photographers point of view

what must have dad been thinking to see us all run and flutter about him?

how he must have longed to chase after the grand kids

to throw them in the air

to dance, to play, to move without pain or struggle

oh, i long for the day when i will be able two-step with my daddy

i miss him something fierce

but his life, his love, and his spirit continue

in our hearts, our minds, and our smiles

love you dad...

always

it's officially...official...

i have a new...new ride

truth be told

i've been driving this thing around for a month

but just today i made my first payment (boo) AND got the plates put on

we're official y'all

{do you very best to ignore my terrible parking job}

oh it was heart breaking to say goodbye to elvis (2003 jeep) :(

unfortunately though, it was time

we put many many miles on that guy

especially the last couple years when i started free lancing

he was a good ole-guy that elvis

and will be missed-long-time

in the end, i am happy to have a new-new car though

and of course it had to be another jeep

still haven't settled on a name...i supposed that will come in time

they always do

until then fancy-pants jeepy jeep will have to do

its hard to dance with the devil on your back...

so shake him off!

pic: circa jan 2012, cleaning costume storage with B

if ever there were a time 

i felt i was in need of super hero power

 it's right about 

now

eeeesh, its hard to stay motivated these days

and mostly where

keeping the abode clean is concerned

hands. down.

housework is for the birds

especially when i would rather be at the beach, or pool, or...target

i feel like my life at present 

could be

perfectly represented by the above picture...sans goldie wrist bands

but i'm working on getting it together y'all

one. day. at. a. time

in other news:

PETER PAN and DOG ACT 

are well under way

and i'm starting to dive straight into a great opera with

 HGOco called SEAWEED SOUP (more on that later)

livin' the dream y'all...live-in the dream!

my heart kept breaking...

i threw it against the wall

unfortunately,this holiday has never been my favorite

for reasons going back to my childhood

(which may or may not include being chased down, threatened with whip cream, and forcefully given a valentine)

but that is neither here nor there

whether we agree with it or not, it is here

so why not celebrate?

wear lots of cutsie hearts

and

have an excuse to over indulge in the chocolate side of life

...and perhaps steal a kiss...or two

;)
have fun lovahs!

smile...

though your heart is aching

forget about that heart business!

what about

my hip, or thigh, or back, or abs or...

yep
its been one of those days
i'm pretty sure every inch of my body aches
and i love it
i live for these crazy-busy times
i'm actively working on four shows this week
with just that or more on the horizon
...and i wouldn't have it any other way...indeed
{hi-ho the glamorous life}
(eeeeesh, don't look at these pics to close a gg...i need to dust, and in a bad way)

bleh...

feelin' a bit poopey y'all

mr g and i have literally been laying around all day...

i'm really

not

kidding

guess its that time of year...bleh!

on a happier note: i figured out how to stream netflix through my wii

(yes, i got one of those things for christmas!!!)

(and, yes, i am a just dance rock star...duh!)

also tomorrow i am bound and determined to get some business accomplished

regardless

of how i feel

this lack of productivity is cramping my style yo!

and now i shall sleep...if mr g will get off my feet

peace

out

i feel it in my bones...

you're knocking at my window

*bone tired y'all*

translation: been a really long month...and, um its only the 14th

its hard to say whether i'm coming or going most times

which leaves me in a state of annoyance these days :/

i'm afraid

i feel

deep down in my bones

some major life changes coming

i guess time will tell what that is exactly

*sigh*

seeking personal happiness is tricky business

feel free to wish me luck

in other news: the new place is coming together...slowly but surely (this weekend i actually had time to unpack a few boxes and hang some flare on the walls....PROGRESS people!)

life

is

good

...most days

come out come out...

where ever you are!

this kit-kat scared the b-geezies out of me today

typically, upon opening the door to my apt,

mr g greets me...slowly stretching his paws

gazing at me with his sleepy eyes

languidly plopping his body on the ground at my feet

ready for a belly rub

and some much deserved attention (according to hims)

not this afternoon!

i came inside

called his name

called his name again

and again

and again

and again...

just as i was starting to panic (20 min later)

i heard a slight squeak coming from inside the sofa

apparently something terrified my poor mr g so deeply

he burrowed himself in the dark couch and

would not, under any circumstances, come out

i literally had to extricate him...mamma kitty style

:( poor mr puss-puss

in the end i'm pretty sure it had to do something with the city turning off the water to fix a broken pipe out on the street

cause when i flushed the toilet later, the pipes sounded angry...and he flipped out...again

not to worry though, he is currently

lounging (kitty porn style) on his window seat

soaking in some sun

good.

as.

new!

guess what fellas...

it's august!

i know i'm a few days late with this announcement but

what-the-hay!

we still have 29 days to celebrate it, eh?

speaking of...

there was a point in my life

{probably while i was reading this thing}

when i was obsessed with the notion

of

1) having a boy child

2) naming him august

and

3) calling him gus

we're talkin' bee's knees people!

well,

its probably for the best that never worked out

cause i'm sure he would have been gingery

and

then i would have been forced to cloth him in

seersucker suits, ankle boots, suspenders, and bow ties...you know, super fancy duds

{possibly something like this}

and that probably would have lead to him seeking therapy for the majority of his adult life

hahaha

in any case

i'm a bit partial to the month

can't imagine why ;)

all i'm saying is there may or may not be

ice cream cake in my near future

and possibly a party hat

and a kazoo

...if my stars align good. and. proper.

p.s. i'm a bit obsessed with clouds these days...possibly cause i've been staring at a lot of those things...a la poolside...i hereby allow you to be jealous of my vitamin d intake

the places you will go...

guess what people...

its a brand new month

life has slowed down a bit around these parts

what a relief...eh, i lie!

in all honesty, i'd rather be crazy busy...truth

however, i've been booking my fall this week

and i certainly should enjoy my time now

cause.

come.

august.

's gonna be crazytown...!

...any who...

enjoy some pics...

of where my feet have taken me...

those buggers sure get around!

dylan's candy bar

(shortly after i took these pics i got fussed at for taking them, lame... :p)

galleria mall

(trailer park shopping part I)

TRAILER PARK opening!

playing bowling

(yeah, still not a fan)

trash shopping @ pasadena mall

(shortly after i took this shot, i shamed a small child into silence after screaming in my ear...best thing i did all day)

swim-fan

dessert gallery

wedding of the century

galleria mall

(trailer park shopping part XXXVVVI)

today is memorial day...

...will i be out on a lake or at the beach....HECK NO!

i'll be livin' it up big at STAGES

doin' some TRAILER PARK notes and hangin' with the gang

turns out, the theatre industry does not recognize holidays...hmmmmph

no doubt we will have a great time, though

in fact,

i've been holed up in a dark, frigid, theatre for the past two days

but despite that, i have major heartburn from laughing so hard

THESE ARE THE BEST OF DAYS, THESE ARE THE WORST OF DAYS...

anywho

in honor of memorial day and my trailer park peeps...(fab pics coming soon)

enjoy this short video brought to my attention by sister sarah

all in a days work:the tale of the green undies...

for days

has been my blind side view, cursing the streets of h-town

just a single pair of men's green undies flappin' in the breeze

sometimes i run so fast all day i don't stop to think about the things that are in plain sight

i had been annoyed by these things for several days before i thought to myself

"i have a pair of men's bright green underwear hanging in my back window"

how does this happen...?

i laughed right out loud!

if nothing else, i can definitely say my work is never boring...

i'm out of vogue, i'm out of touch...

i fell to fast, i feel too much.

recently, i was having a conversation with a newfound friend

i was slightly taken aback when he said to me:

i can tell by talking to you that you are a sensitive person

and probably, in your past, people have said you are perhaps too sensitive

my first instinct was to be offended

i AM NOT too sensitive...i was thinking

but then he added (ish):

society has shaped us to believe that this is a bad thing...its not

being in touch with your inner self,

making a point of showing people how you feel about them

and wanting the same in return

is one of the things that makes you you

embrace it and never apologize

well, my friends,

i truly believe, people are brought into our lives

if even for brief moments, to help us through this....at times, challenging existence

THAT conversation was exactly what i needed at the time

i had been mentally scolding myself for being too sensitive

for caring too much

and for actually...feeling

what a relief, to get such a perspective from my new friend

and if that was not validation enough, a few days later i came across a letter Mom wrote me a lifetime ago in a year called 1992

goodness, i love that gg!

and, i am proud to say:

hello, my name is MACY

and i am SENSITIVE...

dear diary...

april 17, 2011

6am(mst): gazed at beautiful mountain majesty

2pm(cst): cursed weekenders in HERMAN PARK

8pm(cst): contemplated (in luxurious hot bath) how to get back on mr g's good side

what. a. day.

and furthermore, what. a. month.

it is currently 42min from being april 18th

i'm baffled...where did april go?

it seems i went to sleep on March 31st and woke up on April 18th

its rather funny...if not pathetic

pathetic, because i couldn't tell you what happened on April 10th

if my life depended on it, and that's the truth

once upon a time, i kept a journal

most likely to document, world changing information, like this:

what a good laugh i have had tonight, reading old journal entries

its good to remember, where you have been...where you come from

its good to remember the people you love...the moments you shared

its good to remember...remember?

this blog post brought to you by: mmm soap & {KJ}(thanks for leaving your face scrub lady!...i'm loving' it!!!)

say you need me, say you need me

...then write it in a letter form...oh oh oh!

have i ever mentioned how great it is to be an aunt?

its pretty darn great!!!

once you're a JEM GIRL...

you're never the same!

a look back on december...

like the good aunt that i am,

i introduced

JEM and the HOLOGRAMS

to my STAR nieces and nephews while i was there just before christmas

naturally,

they were hooked..even the boys

BUT

especially, this girl:

she seized puter every chance she could to watch episode after episode

and, of course, we HAD to have a

JEM night:full costume

it was a blast...

the boys were definitely jealous ;)

lay lady lay...

there is a place called my bed

i would like to stay in that place for no less than a week

but alas,

i

have

to

make

the

magicS.

and get a couple shows on stage

off i go...